<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d1187944615035455216\x26blogName\x3dMemoirs+of+Moi\x27s+Life\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dBLUE\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://mblaq-joonie.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://mblaq-joonie.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d2250896644930080626', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Welcome Aboard
Please support Dorkistic Design by clicking on the LINK. Have a nice day! With love, Miss Sagittarius

ARCHIVE
♣ November 2009 ♣ December 2009 ♣ January 2010 ♣ February 2010 ♣ March 2010 ♣ April 2010 ♣ May 2010 ♣ June 2010 ♣ July 2010 ♣ August 2010 ♣ September 2010 ♣ October 2010


Checklist/Wishlist
[X] 30 Day Challenge COMPLETE

[X] Sweet expressionism COMPLETE

[] Own a Pair of RED SHOES

[] Own a Pair of FLATS

[] Buy a BRUSH GUARD

[] Buy Michelle Phan's Products

[] Own SJP NYC Perfume

[] Own an ED HARDY GARMENT

[] Own a pair of Christian Louboutin

Quotes <3
"I loved you to death, I still love you to death and I'll continue loving you to death, until we meet again."

"People who love each other end up reuniting. No matter how far apart they are, they will reunite in the end. Love is something that returns!"

"letting go doesnt mean forgetting them..it means remembering the memories and talking about them..without crying"

"If you’re alone, I’ll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I’ll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I’ll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I’ll be your smile. But whenever you need a friend, I’ll just be myself."

Click Me
Make-Up Tutorials
JOIN MBLAQ ATTACK FORUMS
Absolute MBLAQ Forum
Absolute MBLAQ TWITTER
Brian Joo's TWITTER
DL Strong Heart HERE
DL K Shows
KPOP DL
KPOP DL 2
DORKISTIC DESIGN

BEAUTY BOX


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

Credits
. Designed & Coded by: DORKISTIC
.Image from: ASIAN FANATIC
.Textures from: DEVIANTART
. Hosted by: BLOGGER

29th of April 2010
okaiis so @ sport (10 pin bowling) was pretty fine until moi's group was in between two junior groups and the experience was ....... not good one bit.

One the right hand side there are girls who throws the ball like its the end of the WORLD.... BOOM BOOm BOOOm BAM BAM BAM they throw the ball up how high and it lands with a crash in the middle and then starts rolling ughhh ughhh its was horrible

One the left hand side there are... not all.... but a few FUCKEN LIL ARAB BITCHES WHO THINKS THAT THEY ARE ALL THAT AND ACTS SUCH IMMATURE KIDS WHO KNOWS NO SHIT ABOUT RESPECT AND FUCKEN LIFE. lil bitches of my life..... ughh ughh should not get angry over this cuz they dont deserve my anger ... okaiis so this is wat happened there is always a popular bowling ball which is the pink one and i found it and place it on the stand for both groups to use........ it was until half way of the game .... it was my turn and i got that ball which that BITCH was touching and it wasnt even her turn yet and she rage about its her ball... snooby and petty.... i just took it and she started to tug onto it and then another chick from ANOTHER GROUP came and wanted it get it for SOME REASON and i jsut tug it off them and bowl... AGAIN THAT BITCH RAGE AND I WAS TALKING BACK AT HER and she said something that noone touches HER BALL tsk tsk until you own that bowling place you son of a bitch then say that to me but of course as a senoir and the MATURE ONE i didnt say that to her and only gave her a lecture on some respect but if this happens again im not going easy on her and going to show her 100% who is the boss around here..... just cuz im asian, short and quiet doesnt mean she can be A BITCH THAT RAGES AND TALK BACK TO MOI LIKE THAT

but i will do something if she lets me have the opportunity as i heard something that they may do but i dont know yet so just going with the flow..... there was a discussion on jigging bowling and goinng down to the park or something...... tsk ts as soon as they make a move........ hmph they are going to regret getting their asses down there and this is not just a personal reason to dob them in hahhahah its unjustice for them to think they have such freedom and control and if they were that bold they need to face the conseuqnce and get some discipline but i doubt they are going to get any better since they are FUCKEN JUNIOR BITCHES

junior these days are sooo i think im all that attiude.......... (sigh) i cant believe i argued with a BITCH thats younger than me today (sigh) soooo unladylike of me and hmmmm i dont think i can remember how she looks like 0_O




WooHoo
AMAZING RACE IS BACK ON

CHANNEL 7 @ 9:30 TONIGHT

(THURSDAY)



Okaiis today was a horrible day at sport cuz of these idiot bitches ughh ughhh will recount soon after master chief








Plagiarism Chaos with Lee Hyori
okaiis so there is a big big plagiarism incident with Lee Hyori and many of her songs in her album and its really upsetting and disappointing as she took sooo loong to get this album out and there is a problem with it. To say the truth this wanst her only plagiiarism incident but she had one a while ago with Britney Spear's song ugh ughhh She should get better COMPOSERS ughh ughh even though its not entirely her fault but she does hold a bit of responsibility and the company and composers are a big problem here. Below is a list of the accusations.

1. Cookie Couture’s Boy, Bring it Back and Hyori’s Bring it Back
2.
Lil Precious’ So Insane and Hyori’s I’m Back
3. Melanie Durrant’s Feel the Same and Hyori’s Feel the Same
4. Mikis Theodorakis’ The Train Leaves at Eight and Hyori’s Swing
5. Jason DeRulo’s How Did We Get and Hyori’s How Did We Get
6. Second Person’s and The Alphabet Song and Hyori’s Memory.

And all of them sound too similar too too similar... apparently 5. Hyori owns copy right issues so its like a cover but i wonder about the rest of the songs.... this is really disappointing and also 2. Lil Precious was unaware and its been said that they never sold the songs to anyone b4 and hyoirs version is pretty much a copy of it....... no. 4 Hyori's company said that the song never belonged to anyone but still it shows that Koreans are lacking in their sense of creativity

if they at least though about composing some of their own songs for Hyoir then this wouldnt happen and they pretty much got a lot of time for the album so yes.... i dont see how can 6! songs have this problem and with Lee Hyori as well tsk tsk i started to doubt in hyoris song after the britney spears incident and like her again after U-Go Girl and now THIS ughhh ughhh



G.O.D- To my Mother
TRANSLATION:
(credits: warghalv)

since i was young, our house was in poverty
there wasn't one time where i could show something off to others
my mother was never home because she had to work at the construction site
i was always at home alone cooking la myun
but then i became sick of la myun
i complained that i wanted to eat something good
so my mom reluctantly took out
the hidden emergency money and ordered
one jja jang myun, i was so happy
but my mom didn't eat any
my mother said that she didn't like jja jang myun
my mother said that she didnt' like jja jang myun

that's how i lived, thats how i regreted, and also shed tears
that's how i lived, it hurt so much, and i cried again

in middle school, first year, when when someone forgot their lunch
we all gathered our lunch boxes and opened them together
the little rich kid spit angry words at me
and said, what is that "banchan" for a lunch?
i was embarassed, and started to get angry
then he said if i started crying he wouldn't be surprised
my flying fist towards his face couldn't be patient
my mother at the construction site had to come to school again

they called her, no they dragged her over here
she told them that this would never happen and hung her head low
that kid made my mother lower her head
my mother lowered her head

that's how i lived, thats how i regreted, and also shed tears
that's how i lived, it hurt so much, and i cried again

without a father, we finally finished
finally we owned a little restaurant
it wasn't very big but we were happy
my mothers face (that was filled with wrinkles) gathered tears in her eyes
my mother wrote my name in the front
we decided that was the name and examined it
even though it got later into the night, we both didnt know the meaning of leaving
people kept coming in and congratulating us
only when it became midnight were we tired and went back home
one day my mom went into a deep sleep
and she never woke up again...

i loved you my dear, even though i never said it once
i love you, now rest peacefully, forever in the world without me anymore

that's how i lived, thats how i regreted, and also shed tears
that's how i lived, it hurt so much, and i cried again





Classics of All times

A few days ago I just felt like revisiting some of the classics of KPOP of all times.... the generation in which KPOP spread like crazy with the talented artists of the era such as Shinhwa, SES, Boa, Rain, Lee Hyori/Fin.K.L, HOT, G.O.D etc just to list a few. Here are some of my favourite songs of all times and they still sound great even now.


Kiss: Because im a girl is the BEST came out in 2000 and somthing and its such a touching and emtional song that is soo sooo sad and was a huge hit back then and loved by many to the point where many other verisions are made



Lee Hyori- 10 minutes this is how Lee Hyroi became miss Queen of Pop!


This is the beginning of Boa's evolution and pretty much all her old songs are loved by many including me hahhaha


My love for Shinhwa was through their hit song Perfect Man hahhaha


S.E.S debut of Im your Girl hahhaah the MV is really old skool cuz it came out in the 1990's but this song is a classic that will always be remembered


This was G.O.D's debut song and the lyrics is really sad and meaningful as the song title is to my mother... actually i have never listened to g.o.d b4 and this is the year of me lisstening to their songs and loving them


Fly to the Sky- Sea of Love was the first song that i listened from them and its sooo good



Then there is this sad song that is engraved in my heart Bo Go Ship Da by Kim Bum Soo which will always remind me of the one drama Stairway to Heaven with his smooth vocals .... damn this song would always bring that same vibe and feel to me



hmmmm and I think thats all for now since i cant rememember any more atm :P



22th of April 2010
Yay finally Gummy's There is no love came out with the MV as well and i totally Love the SOng not disappointing one bit... as expected from the teaser




Also, on Aj's youtube channel he upload an offical MV for a song when we say (Juicebox) with WongFu productions and its really good so check it out and he just a guy who is passionate with music and youtubes them :p and i think he made offical songs b4 .... not sure but his vocals are great







19th of April 2010
Today back to school was ok....... didnt even feel like i have a holiday

but today 2PM finally came out with the song Without U and its ............ boring im kindof disappointed since the teaser seemed so good but the song is okaiis not that good just has a dramatic MV and the album is .... okaiis not good as well hahhahah

but I am impress with Gummy's teaser for There is no Love and I cant wait for her mini album .... hopefully this song is as good as the teaser omg the teaser is sooo good loving the tune already :P







Kimchi Bokumbap
Today I made Kimchi Fried Rice hahahahha its really nice so i recommend everyone to try it out hahahhaha since I was home alone today and I decided to make something.
I first wanted to eat Pasta and there was an instant one in the cupboard until this morning i opened it and it was GONE ughh ughhh it was there yesterday and it disappeared i was soooo piss so i went to look for pasta and there was none ughhhh mum bought some mushrooms yesterday so i wanted to eat it with pasta but noooooo there wasnt any

It was not until later that i remembered that in the fridge there was kimchi hahhaha and i then made kimchi fried rice hahhaha i didnt have some of the ingredients but i still made it and i added in the mushrooms and it tastes great :P very different hahaha but i added to much of the kimchi juice so its a bit hot but here is the link for how to make it.... i based it on this

http://mykoreankitchen.com/2007/01/03/stir-fried-kimchi-and-rice-kimchi-bokkumbap-in-korean/


and here is mine... kindof failed on the egg ><>

















and at tutor yesterday had a sub teacher for maths but he was sooo COOL hhahah he knows how to speak ummm wat is it 7 languages (that means speak, write and read thorough) including, Cambodian, Thai, Viet, Chinese (all of them) and Korean! hahhahah i think theres more but i cant remmeber and then he wrote my viet name into korean on the spot and it was sooo kool hahhaha also he has a year left of uni and is becoming a doctor hahaha he has very good memory and even taught us how to have good memory too he also told us about his past which was not very nice as he was the naughty guy, record of suscpension, lazy etc etc and only until yr 11/12 he started to reconstruct himself so it really shows that you can get anywhere in life if you have the determijnation to do so and that you dont need to be smart to do them



Also im going to try and become a vegetarian and that is a reason to why i didnt put any meat in my rice hahhah


The StairCase Test
got this off my hunni again and my results is this

OMG its sooo TRUE


To you, life is all about being stress-free.

Relaxed and content, you take life as it comes. To you life is all about enjoying yourself and not worrying about the little things. It takes a lot to make you angry and people enjoy your ability to rise above certain situations. It doesn't matter how long it takes you to get somewhere, you will get there eventually... and with all of your hair intact! Make sure that you don't let your über-chilled nature stop you from being motivated to do your best in life, because you definitely have the ability to achieve success.



15th of April 2010
Firstly Lee Hyori's COmeback was HOT and impressive... her performance was strong and powerful and now I like her new song after seeing it on live.... its sooo much better than the MV and its so her when she performs not like the MV too lady gagaish for my taste :P




Secondly, i must say that this comic is not one bit FUNNY and offensive tsk tsk how could they talk abt GDragon like that tsk tsk tsk such an insult to BIG BANG tsk tsk Allkpop is sooo YG bias ... why dont they make a comic on 2PM's situtaion huh?















Thridly, this parody of Love Song is sooo cute hahah even though it only shows a bit of the beaver or watever that animal is hahha its sooo CUTE




Fourthly, Alice in WOnderland is really really good and funny and I love all the characters in it... they acted very well and all have such unique individual personalities hahahaha lol... also i love it because it shows a different view of alice in wonderland and Tim Burton did an awesome job giving life to this fairytale? again


New LAYOUT
whoohooo I got a new layout and I have to thank-you the wonderful Chazzie unni who did it for me and pretty quickly as well.. hahhaha SOO LOVING IT

man just finished fixing up all the bits and pieces and in the end, I edit every post to this blue colour but some post it wouldnt let me CHANGE ughh ughhh so i left it and of course label each post with my sig of Love Linda .... as in ending post wise thats why i have it down there.... thankgod I didt have that much post in total so i was fine


thats all and I will fix up the music as my ipod thing dissappear and add songs to it of course hahhahah




Pasta
omg Pasta (a korean drama) is soooo soooo good even though the synopsis sounds boriing... sigh wehn ppl ask me abt how a drama goes... it always sound so boring but in fact its soooooo sooooo good hahhahaha

omg im so addicted to it again kekekkeke.... omg its too good

omg the chemistry between Seo Yoo Kyung (played by Gong Hyo Jin) and Choi Hyun Wook (played by Lee Sun Gyun) is sooo soo sooo CUTE and this is not the mushy typical type of cute where I cant live without you sort of thing but its different hahhahaah i cant explain it ... its not that typical and when their love develops omg its sooo cute hahhaaha i couldnt stop smiling ... kekekke thats how cute they are.... hahhaha and they are such a hilarious couple as well....
and with the mix of the other 2 characters.... they dont follow the typical storyline of dramas where they are selfish ppls trying to separate the main cast and being dirty.... in Pasta they are really down to earth people and you dont hate them hahahhah especially Kim San's character which is played by Alex Chu, he balances out the drama and adds humor to the drama as well

since continuing watching this OMG cant stop watching 24/7 and downloading... but have to restrain myself and its been only a day and im dying from not being able to dl and watch ughh ughh so i started playing Sims 3 again last night and did work today so i wont be tempted to watch but still...... omg its such a cute comedy drama hahhaha i want to WATCH IT.............


okaiis Sims 3 finally found a way to make the Sim get their skills faster but its a bit fussy but im still going to try since its such hard work to boost up all of the skills in all of the catergories and i cbb but then if i do that it might get boring later since its tooo cheatish..... from alot of the comments you can boost to the highest level within a day in the 'sims world' hhahaha im such a cheater



okaiis just going to dl one more.... just one more hahhahaha








Personality Test
Recommended by my girl this was my results... hahhah some of it is sooo true like the end..... you may be occasionally be calm and still but not for long

Your view on yourself: (oh this is sooo true kekkekeke [flashes hair back] )

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.


The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.


Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.


The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?


Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.


The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.


How do you view success: (very true I believe in this view)

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.


What are you most afraid of: (yes i am very concerned abt my image)

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.


Who is your true self: (some of it's true i guess >_<)

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.






Iris Special
Just watched the special and it was interesting as it showed to the viewers some behind the scenes footage and a closer insight about this drama... although it has ALOT of recaps of the drama itself but it was worth it as it showed interviews and NGs

The part that i was amazed and laugh at was the scene where Hyun Jun is running away from the North after assassinating the president (in the beginning) and he runs to this train looking field and the train exploded.....hahhaha it was revealed that the director didnt tell him about the explosion and when it exploded as he was acting ... human insticts is to JUMP (so it was real acting) so he did and after he was like OMG that thing exploded why didnt you tell me! to the director....

Another thing that was interesting was that they used alot of real explosives in the scenes and actually blew up the shopping mall to make it look realisic ... the scene where the terriost held hostage the shopping mall and the front got exploded... :0

Also by watching the special a few thing made more sense as translation of the subbers sometimes can change the meaning of the drama like in the end where the scene of Sa Woo handing over Hyun Jun another gun to kill the terriost in the shopping mall.... the subs says "Hey!" Below.... but it was suppose to be Sa Woo saying Hey! Nutcase... nutcase because that was a nickname that Sa Woo used to call Hyun Jun when they use to be friends and since he said that it indicates that he still values that friendship and shows his change of attitude.... hahah thats why they were exchangning glances of happiness like "back in the old days" glances hhahhah

okaiis if you guys want to watch it and couldnt find the dl links (i forgot to put them up )
Here it is:

Part 1 ..... 001 http://www.mediafire.com/?dzodmj2mriu

Part 1.... 002 http://www.mediafire.com/?zumyqwzyx3o

Part 2 .... 01 http://www.mediafire.com/?wz3vym2oeie

Part 2 ..... 02 http://www.mediafire.com/?ryzxmetkzdl






Iris

Yay finally I have finish watching Iris and going to start watching your beautiful next.

Iris is such a good drama that has an awesome cast especially with Lee Byung HUn and Kim Tae Hee and as a couple they are very cute and sweet. Its interesting how they tried to balance the romance and action and secrets etc in this drama..... this drama was EXCELLENT until until

parts of the last two espisodes..... alot of it was good but then somehow a dark "secret" of Seung Hee (im talking iris jargon) gets exposed which is sooo WTF moment cuz it doesnt damn relate to anything and RUIN the storyline they should have put that in the sequel .... its sooo stupid and out of the blue and they tried to bundle up with the whole Iris wanting to stop the unification of the NOrth and SOuth tsk tsk these writers are STUPID.... there was a split moment of the real SEung Hee and who she is and that just RUINS it... tsk tsk.... also in the end okaiis Hyun Jun dies which is ok because i noe that he is going to be back in the sequel (which i cant wait) but nothing happens to Seung Hee.......

think about this first she got to see the identity of most likely "Mr Black", she rejected the offer of Iris which shows that she knows alot about what Iris is... isnt she a pretty big treat to Iris since she can go against them anytime yet the negotiation is tooo nice? and they just let her go off like that and TOP who plays as Vic died too easily.... he is a top assianator yet he dies helplessly in his apartment o_O and there was hardly anything about who he was etc etc he just died and there you go revenage successful

hahhaha so Iris overall has some really weird moments and they mess it up but it was a GREAT drama which made me smile, cry, laugh and anticpate... hahhahah

Now i really want to watch the movie yayaya and waiting patienly for the sequel which is going to come next year wooohooo LOL

and didnt noe that there was a SPECIAL so i just dl it after trying to find it with eng subs awwww its crap quality but oh wells better than nothing so im going to watch it later


EDIT

just went to look at some news and OMG Rains comeback..... why those eyelashes they r HIDEOUS horrible... thought it was only for the cover but he used it in the performance as well but wow he won an award already right on his comeback :P

also YAY Mr Gong Yoo is coming back with a movie CANT WAIT since i love his acting and of course miss him dearly after the long abscene of going to army




Edward Cullen
Okaiis peoples are getting more and more bored to create these merchandise of the only one Edward Cullen

its normal for the creation of t-shirts, mugs, stationary, keyrings etc etc

even pumpkins?



















toy figures... when i first saw them at the shops OMFG it was the ugliest thing that i had ever seen



























bathroom sheets?



























But there are some that recently made on the headlines are the "gorgeous" wax figure





















and a chocolate head that took two weeks to make.... which is soo dead ugly
















I really do wonder what more of these merchandise can they create..... hopefully its not any more horrifying than these because now twilight is turning me off but still looking forward to eclipse as I am very curious to how they are going to do the movie




Solbi
Totally loving Solbi's new song What SHould I do its soo cute and refreshing with her vocals and the melody
and how its similar to SG Wannabe’s La La La. i guess so in a way but Solbi's is sooo much better

Just hopefully her covers are not photoshop =_= but she is showing the youthful image feel again not like sometimes on strong heart ughhh she sometimes dresses such an oldie




Favourite Calendar
I have this calendar in my room which has such lovable quotes that is sooo adorable with images as well and there is this one that i love in particular


GOD CREATED WOMAN
( its not in caps but i want to emphasize that)

he looked at her and saw that she was good

then he created shopping, chocolate, shoes. wine and various different types of magazine.

then he sat back, burped, farted and then god created man


woohoo thats right let the era of feminism continue to reign and you got to admit the fact that girls are better than guys hahahah kekekeke





Idol Army Episode 8
This had made my night..... ws full cracking up laughing since MBLAQ MIR and AFTER SCHOOL NANA is sooo cute and adorable..... they were playing this ice cream game and poor Mir got hmmmm attacked by the ice cream since Nana is sooo clumsy LOL ... thats all im saying so that i dont ruin it for those who hasnt watch it kekkekekekek






H-Logic
just went on allkpop and Hyori released her MV for Swing hahahha the songs okaiis very different and the clown makes me laugh hahhaahha one of the most prettiest clown i have ever SEEN kekekekke im slowly liking the song though not obsess with it completely

heres the MV



Forgot to mention how excited i am for Rain's COMEBACK loving his new songs thats been released so far and of course waiting patiently for my love MBLAQ hahhaha talking about MBLAQ theres a show that they participate which is Idol Army and im sooo dying to watch the next episode which is taking a while to be sub.... ughhh its killing me due to my curiosity to know the couple pairings


Also join mblaq attack forums to participate in a contest for their new album hahaha its really easy go here http://mblaqattack.com/forums/index.php?/topic/1015-contest-2-comical-mblaq all you need to do is that they send u a pic in which u write text on like those funny captions.. just need to reply to that topic so they noe to send u the image :P


ps. have fun on your holidays everyone.... especially the weekends kekekke (winks)





DAMMIT
hhaha just checked my previous post for something and somehow a paragraph DISAPPEAR and it was the climax of the post ughh ughhhh I put sooo much emotion in it but oh wells maybe its fate that its not suppose to be shared on this blog because now i cant remember what i wrote,.............

tsk tsk tsk