Mum, Dad I am so sorry for disappointing you this semester with shitty shitty marks with exams just passing and some even failing. Year 11 was harder than I though and the work load is getting unbearable each day. I dont know why I am failing my exams but I know that it wasnt my best. It was my fault for not studying harder... my fault for not managing my time and my fault for being lazy. You both had done so much for me and have a lot of hope in me in doing really good in my studies but already I had disappointed you guys. My rankings are not even any better. The only thing I can do for you now is to try really hard for next semester and do well in my yearlies and Im already trying to start to redeem myself by studying more... especially for maths. hahah i feel as if i cant stand year 11 anymore and just want to drop out ahhahaha but when I think about you, I turn away from that thought and will try harder to do my studies once again.
Ever since my exams, I cant seem to be optimistic as I fear to how you will react when you see the marks on my report... the marks that will be extremely shocking to you. And now I fear to how I will show you my maths mark! OH GOD how will i show you the marks.... but I have to ... I will die either way.
Thank-you Mum and Dad for giving me the freedom to do things.
Thank-you for loving me and trusting me and looking after me and paying for my 'needs'.
I cant say thank-you enough to how grateful I am to have you in my life.
I hope that I can make you proud of me when I finish school and I know that no matter what marks i get, you will still love me and know that I had tried my hardest even if you do get disappointed.
I love you forever and always.
There is so much more that i want to say but i cant seem to find the words to say them,
With love,
